at this point, all he is to me is content

Hey,
The reason I didn't go to the BNO show on Friday wasn't because I didn't want to see you or, thought you'd quack at me all night, it's because it still hurts to even hear your name, let alone see you, combined with the chance that you might be there with some one, I just couldn't handle it.

I don't want these emails to be the last time we ever talk, I've put you through a lot of painful times and sad nights, and for what it's worth, I'm sorry.